Hopefully it’s a Talking-Whilst-Fully-Clothed Visit.

In CategoryNavel Gazing
ByDeb

Me: Okay, so you know how I’ve been crying all the time lately?

Jim, clearly wary of a trap: Yesssss?

Me: And all my friends have been encouraging me to go see about getting some hormones? (like seriously, ALL MY FRIENDS)

Jim, remaining noncommital: uh-huh?

Me: Well, New Friend told me if I didn’t make an appointment, she was going to tell me we were going to IKEA and then take me to the doctor herself. (ironically, New Friend thinks I’M the bossy one)

Jim laughs.

Me: So I made an appointment.

I pause, and give him a meaningful look.

Jim is oblivious.

Me, making a get-with-it hand gesture (not the heart one) (not the other one, either): Why do you need to do that sweetie, you are perfect just the way you are…?

Jim: oh, right. You’re perfect.

Me: Listen, I’m scared about this. But maybe it would be better if I was less bitchy. But I’m only bitchy in the most charming of ways, right?

Jim, straight faced: You are very charming.

Me: You know in 10 years they are just going to discover that the drugs cause some dread disease. But all my friends say they would make the trade, that it would be worth it.

Jim: See, what your friends don’t know…(sees my raised eyebrow)…is that you’ve ALWAYS been this charming.

So there you go. That’s what I’m doing. I am being done Chronically Cranky and Ridiculously Weepy, and having no energy past 3 o’clock in the afternoon. I am telling you this because I would like to not feel alone. I know I am not alone, because my friends struggle with the same thing, and that is surprisingly comforting.

I have noticed lately, that other women will tell me of their struggles when I open up about my struggles. So that’s what I’m doing. I’m struggling. And if you are too, you aren’t alone.

** It was not, unfortunately, a fully-clothed visit. It was more of a “I see you haven’t been here in a while. Get undressed and cover yourself with this martini napkin and I’ll be right back” visit. Oh well. At least it’s done. 

5 Responses to “Hopefully it’s a Talking-Whilst-Fully-Clothed Visit.”

  1. Tammy Says:

    Glad you’re taking care of yourself. Life is filled with so much suffering already. There is no point in suffering something that could be fixed with a shot in the rump a couple of times a year. Good for you!

  2. Tressa Says:

    I am glad that you talked about it. There is no sense in being miserable.
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  3. New Friend Says:

    You are perfectly normal(in feeling this way), you are not alone, you are fabulous, proactive and I am very proud of you for taking this step. Also I love you fiercely and will help you fight this dragon. I got your back.

  4. Best Friend Says:

    You know I have been happy with the hormones I am on. Just make sure they give you a balanced mix of hormones.

  5. Happy Elf Mom (Christine) Says:

    As long as I don’t grow a beard, I think I’ll be ok.

    Although when I am 70, a boob job is on the list because at that point I will tell everyone who listens that it is *medically necessary.*
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